But don't tell yourself that it's too late @Lucy. Be in control. Do what needs to be done to put all this in a context that's reasonable. Then you don't have to be afraid of it. It's the same as being prepared, only you're prepared to be Lucy.
Yesterday, while watching a streamer, I learned something cool about the Eiffel Tower. The 72 names engraved on the Eiffel Tower belong to French scientists, engineers, and mathematicians who supported the building process. These golden letters are located on the first level (the lowest platform) of the tower, just beneath the balcony that runs around the structure.
Other things I learned about it: The stairs only go up to the 2nd floor. After that you have to take an elevator. The original spiral staircase was sold for scrap.