Sorry Charlet. My mom's boyfriend's brother's wife who died of cancer was named Carmen. And there is the opera which I loved cuz all the skaters skated to it all the Olympics. Katarina Witt/Debi Thomas, 1984.
I'm sorry about that. But like you said, you're a different person now. So maybe other people see you differently now. Just try to surround yourself with people that love you and will help you when you need it and ignore everyone else as much as you can.