@Charlet, you were younger, you understood less of the world. You deserve the benefit of compassion. Your mother isn't here to forgive you, I'm afraid, and you must find the strength to forgive yourself.
@Invader, before my wife trapped me, I really did consider going back to Asia and being a buddhist monk. I still think that's in my future after retirement.))
It started a new era for me when she died. I had no friends and I had barely any belongings, I did get what I was craving freedom from a horriable home and I used to crave for a lot of dark stuff. I am still repairing myself after my ordeals
"In the original Carmen looks like a man. The original episodes all end the same, the new one has more characters, they all end differently and the art style is better"