'Having it together' is rather external. Unless you've truly been in the place of someone, it's difficult to judge who they truly are, or what they may have suffered.
Writing as Carmen, I've illustrated that there are reasons for the red trench coat and hat. Whether it's to distract, shield or mitigate, the core of these reasons rests in illusions.
Inadequacy and insecurity are native to perception, of course. As a human being, I experience them sufficiently. The secret to my stability, thus far, deals directly with being 'a good boss.' When one has dozens of lives to assure, one's own problems seem trivial in comparison.
Speaking of Chase, when I asked him what his first impression of you was, he said that you flew completely under his radar. I am curious: what was your first impression of him? Did you have the full measure of the man at the time, or has your perception changed?
I agree, it was (and is still) odd. I'm sure at the time, the person wanted to give a part of themselves to me and saw it fitting as blood is rather personal. I'm sure at some point, they understood this decision was a bad one.
I will think on it. I've only made one RP post and I have absolutely no idea what to do with myself. I suppose I'll have to get on with it at some point. One cannot simply do character development forever.))