but i think it's telling that i latched onto carmen, not zack, even though on the surface zack was far more similar to me. part of which may have been my (at that time, utterly unconscious) femaleness, but i think a lot of it is that... i was a lonely, lonely kid. still am a lonely woman. and carmen was always alone, in a class by herself. (again, see also nancy, meg murry, sailor moon.) i know that was something i related to, because i remember one incident so specifically.