It looks like when you were young, you didn't have anyone to really look up to. Have you found people to look up to, or are you still searching?
Patty completely looks up to Carmen. And that might have built too much expectation from Carmen as a mother-figure. There was a disconnect somewhere along the way that made Patts take off, maybe she was subconsciously looking for a father figure. While she thought that Maelstrom fit that role, a run-in with Chase Devineaux in Moscow gave her a different perspective.
Chase was adamant about doing the right thing (not just for her, but in general), and he showed it by action. He didn't have a questionable moral code that she could see (not that she hadn't experienced honor from VILE, but this was a different setting and in direct comparison to her Norwegian mentor, Devineaux was a saint). She was surprised that he'd agree to help her.
It was natural when Chase was reunited with his team that Patty became a little envious of ACME, and particularly Ivy, for having a mentor like that.
[From Ultramarine, page 12]
She looked towards the redhead called Commander Ivy Monaghan for a time, wondering what it would have been like to be a young detective and get your law enforcement career set by the time you were in your early 20s. What kind of people her parents had to be to raise someone so fierce and confident? Who were her heroes? Naturally, she followed Ivy’s eyes to ACME’s Director of Operations and that partially answered her question.